I am fresh out of words for this post.

I am trying to piece together what I want to say but the thoughts aren’t exactly flowing, and the first draft felt more like mashed up sentences than like actual reflections.

But I have pictures to share. And I want to reflect on the year. And I want to spell out the things I’ve learned, so my future self can look back and nod and smile and think fondly on the 12 months that made up 2017, because it was a good 12 months, and I did learn a lot, and grew a lot and got better acquainted with the person I am becoming (and I quite like her!).

It was not all good, though. Some of it was bad, and some of it was really bad. There was loss and sadness, and there were struggles and confusion, but these are needed for growth. There is no sweet without the bitter.

As the years pass, the bitter becomes more tolerable, anticipated even. There have been times this year when I anxiously waited for bitter moments that never came, and that is one thing I’ve been trying to do less of lately and will continue to do less of next year: less worrying about tomorrow and more letting tomorrow worry about itself.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34 [NIV]

Last year I set three goals/resolutions, and here is how I fared:
  • Take a real vacation - DONE
  • Start using a planner regularly - DONE, and then stopped because I felt my type A tendencies unhealthily going into overdrive.
  • Fix up the backyard - DONE (kinda?), we got a patio set, a fire pit and some tiki lights, but the grounds still need some love and it seriously needs to be treated for mosquitoes.

This year, I only have one: to finally finish the Goldfinch, by Donna Tartt. I started this book last year, and it is a biggun. The story is moving slow, so I keep putting it down with every intention to finish it later. Later has come.

Other than that, I am taking each day for what it is, planning for tomorrow but not worrying (too much) about it. This will probably prove to be easier said/typed than done, but that is the goal.


Photos from December are below.

January wallpaper is here.


  1. One of my favorite verses <3. I love how simple your goal is for 2018. I find myself always over planning and setting wayyy too many ending up disappointed. Wishing you much success, blessings, and good vibes in the new year!

    PS...I too go way overboard with planning. Fellow Type A creative lol. Have you found something that helps instead of hinders your Type A personality?

    1. CHILE, it's an ongoing discovery. I find that using my phone helps. Putting events on the ical and using the reminders list(s) have also been useful, but i don't like always ~having~ to look at my phone, which was why a physical planner was so appealing.

      I'm considering a bullet journal this time around, though. Maybe the creative effort of drawing/outlining each week will help curb my anal tendencies, but that also sounds like a lot of extra work, so I'm not sure. I'll keep you posted! LOL

  2. I have this verse on a sticky on my work desk. My environment is stressful, especially around these times and I NEED a constant reminder.

    You have such a way with words. Even if you didn't think that words were forming with any rhyme or reason, they did. They always do.

    Blessings to you and your family for 2018!

    1. I need to do that: post it somewhere so I always remember.

      Thank you Carla, I truly appreciate it! Blessings to your and your beautiful family as well. ❤️

  3. Gah I so know what you mean about waiting for bitter moments to come and then when they don't happen, I feel bad for expending so much energy anticipating a "what if" instead of focusing on now. I love that you've kept and are keeping your goals simple for every year. Hope 2018 is off to a great start so far and sending positive vibes your way for the rest of the year Disa! xo

    1. Yes, and that bad energy can really take a toll on our physical wellbeing. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

      Happy 2018, Setarra! Xx

  4. Ah such a lovely post!! Wishing you a wonderful 2018 and looking forward to reading more! :)

    Layla xx


    1. Thanks, Layla! Wishing you a happy new year as well <3


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